As I transition back home from AmeriCorps I have reflected a lot on what I have learned from my experience. It has been very difficult to come back home and start a "normal" life again. Having so much free time to do whatever I want has been a challenge for me. Trying to keep busy is not an easy task when there seems like there is nothing to do. Sure wedding planning has consumed my life some days but is seems like it comes and goes in rushes of excitement and dullness. Don't get me wrong, I have LOVED planning my wedding but it just seems like I'm missing something...someone...my future life partner.
Being away from Lex has been so hard. I don't know how people would be away from their significant other 20 years ago. We have phones that we can be in constant contact with and even Skype where we can see each others face. Talking on the phone every day and Skype just doesn't do it for me. One of my love languages is physical touch and I miss snuggling up to my man every night and being with him constantly. Keeping myself busy has allowed me to get my mind off of the things I miss and look forward to the things to come. I know being away from Lex has its challenges, but in the end the reward will be the greatest. In the mean time, I will just have to rely on my body pillow to snuggle up with at night. At least that gives me something to wrap my arms around! :)
As the Christmas season arises, I look forward to spending time with my family as well as my family and husband to be.